So i realized recently during casual discussion with my father that even though i'm easy going, im also a perfectionist which explains why it takes me so long to get things done.
for example, i go on this blog everyday and i have a million things i want to tell the world but i cant ever pick just one because it has to be prefect. even the fact that im not capitalizing or punctuating where i need to right now is bugging me to the extreme.
i also realize now why i cant stand having a boyfriend. because boyfriends aren't perfect. relationships arent perfect and therefore i get annoyed or bored with them and i end up pushing away lot of good people, but a lot of crappy, sleezy people too =D.
its not that im an uptight person, im actually a really flexible one, i guess just because ive moved a lot and been through a lot in the past few years it taught me to go with the flow. but when i do something, i realize that if it isnt perfect, i have to keep starting over. i cant finish something if it isnt done right.
(im also constantly changing my myspace and facebook profile because of this too.)
thats what happened during our in-class essay while the back table was screaming i couldnt concetrate enough to make my paper perfect and now im STILL working on it. gaaaaah!
Monday, April 7, 2008
More About My Playlist
So there is one song on my playlist that has a little bit of significance and because I need more stuff to write about on the blog i'll tell you a story.
the one song on the playlist is called ambitions of a man by a band named from the pawn. its this underground band on long island. and remember that really uncool kid whose actually super cool in real life that i was dating for a while from my last post? well he's in this story too.
k well hes this hardore, punk, idk what you call them, "scene," anarchist, long island guy i work with and when i was dating him he took me to a show. basically its a band playing really loud, but really good music into a mic in a 20 x 10 bar room that you dont need to be that loud for anyway.
Then, everyone gets really into the loudness and hatred of it all and they dance. but they dont really dance they basically stand in the middle of a big circle and swing their arms around and drop-kick eachother out of excitement... thats how the owner split beer on me. but he apologized so whatever he was cool.
i also saw a lot of really inappropriate things happen that night and then some kid got thrown out while me and alex (thats my coworkers name) were outside for a cigarette. that was also really cool.. and pretty funny too.
anyway i added that song because that was possibly the coolest thing I've ever seen. and i liked that song. i watched everyone go insane when it came on that night and it was all really interesting to watch. I want to go to another show but he was the only hardcore, punk, scene, anarchist, long island guy i know and I'm not dating him anymore.
actually now that i think about it, a lot of that music came from that kid. not surprising, we shared a similar taste in music but i never told him that.
this post makes me happy that i made this blog virtually impossible to find =)
the one song on the playlist is called ambitions of a man by a band named from the pawn. its this underground band on long island. and remember that really uncool kid whose actually super cool in real life that i was dating for a while from my last post? well he's in this story too.
k well hes this hardore, punk, idk what you call them, "scene," anarchist, long island guy i work with and when i was dating him he took me to a show. basically its a band playing really loud, but really good music into a mic in a 20 x 10 bar room that you dont need to be that loud for anyway.
Then, everyone gets really into the loudness and hatred of it all and they dance. but they dont really dance they basically stand in the middle of a big circle and swing their arms around and drop-kick eachother out of excitement... thats how the owner split beer on me. but he apologized so whatever he was cool.
i also saw a lot of really inappropriate things happen that night and then some kid got thrown out while me and alex (thats my coworkers name) were outside for a cigarette. that was also really cool.. and pretty funny too.
anyway i added that song because that was possibly the coolest thing I've ever seen. and i liked that song. i watched everyone go insane when it came on that night and it was all really interesting to watch. I want to go to another show but he was the only hardcore, punk, scene, anarchist, long island guy i know and I'm not dating him anymore.
actually now that i think about it, a lot of that music came from that kid. not surprising, we shared a similar taste in music but i never told him that.
this post makes me happy that i made this blog virtually impossible to find =)
LA LA LA LAAAAAAAAAAA
So i added music to my page because my page sucks compared to everyone else in the class. Reasons why my page sucks:
1. It doesnt even have a topic i can decide on, or title i can decide on for that matter.
2. Because my life sucks so there isn't much, or theres too much to write about. =o
The music I added says a lot about my personality and the things i like and the people i talk to and my life and stuff. Even though there is one song i forgot to put on. =( But that's okay I'll fix that later.
I'm also kind of sad because the whole player doesnt fit. But that doesnt matter much either because you can still see the name of the songs and skip around on it.
I used playlist.com to add the music. Its this really cool site that this really uncool kid I was dating for a while showed me. but he wasn't really uncool, he's actually very cool; he's just uncool right now.
Okay anyway, so I'm rambling on about unimportant people. but go on playlist.com. You can get virtually any song you want and listen to it right from the website. and if you sign up (which is free duh) you can build your own playlist like I did and post it on this or myspace or facebook or friendster or just sign on and listen to it.
1. It doesnt even have a topic i can decide on, or title i can decide on for that matter.
2. Because my life sucks so there isn't much, or theres too much to write about. =o
The music I added says a lot about my personality and the things i like and the people i talk to and my life and stuff. Even though there is one song i forgot to put on. =( But that's okay I'll fix that later.
I'm also kind of sad because the whole player doesnt fit. But that doesnt matter much either because you can still see the name of the songs and skip around on it.
I used playlist.com to add the music. Its this really cool site that this really uncool kid I was dating for a while showed me. but he wasn't really uncool, he's actually very cool; he's just uncool right now.
Okay anyway, so I'm rambling on about unimportant people. but go on playlist.com. You can get virtually any song you want and listen to it right from the website. and if you sign up (which is free duh) you can build your own playlist like I did and post it on this or myspace or facebook or friendster or just sign on and listen to it.
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