first post in a while

i havent written in a while. i didnt lose my scholorship (yayz).

i still have staph infection and now i also have the flu in my throat. my doctor told me i get sick too much. i told him duh and then he wrote the prescription and we didnt talk much after that. it was a little uncalled for but why would you say that? shit its not like i dont realize im sick all the time.. probably because i dont sleep.

in the meantime i find myself actually growing feelings for another person besides myself and my hamster. its been a while since i felt like funny feelings. i think thats a big step towards my mothers definition of "normality". he doesnt have a name because he lives on the moon and has big muscles.

i also bought a bowl that lights itself. ya, you got that right. its so fucking cool. it doesnt even look like a bowl it looks like a little camera. it was $65 dollors but its totally worth it because the girl who sold it to me did the right thing she threw in the extra butane and told me if it breaks to bring it back to the store & they'll replace it for me. she had the sickest dreadlocks ive ever seen. i dont think this is illegal but i dont really care either way because there isnt anything to care for anymore when i have a headache this bad.

i want to cry but am too cold hearted to do so... but i try really hard but no tears come out. oh well, till next time.

today is also my friend bradleys birthday and on friday all my guy friends are making me go to a strip club to celebrate.. which is strange because im not a lesbian so idk why i would enjoy that. i might not go.

oh yea, let me do what my last post directed me to...
fuck shizniit burn lieff cawckssszzz skin heeeed blah blah blah more to cum.

OKAY

so i have the feeling im going to fail all my finals and loose my scholorship... mainly because im irresponsible and i suck at life. pray with me that this doesnt occur.

in other news i went on that blind date and i actually do feel a little guilty for that earlier post. hes a great guy... but im still not into him.

oh and i still have staph infection so stay away from me. LIKEOMGZNOWAY what if my staph was contagious through your computer. haha that would suck for you.

or is it contagious on my keyboard since i'm typing on it? duhh noo but i'm still probably gonna make a huge douche bag who i hate or has hit on me relentlessly use my computer tomorrow just in case=)

wow i'm a horrible person. im going to bed. i hope i dont fail my final.

my next post will be a bunch of curse words because now that i am not typing for class i can utilize this blog to voice horrible messages through the interweb

my last post for this class but not like, in life you know?

waterworld ended and now i'm watching a black lady on tv get a weave sewn on her head. i wonder what they actually sew it on to? is it her scalp? doesn't that hurt?

im sorry waterworld took 100 bagillion dollars to make and bombed at the box office when it came out because i loved it. even though it takes place in the future, when the whole world is covered in water. but something REALLYYYY bothered me about the movie...

basically the idea is that no one can find dry land. the entire movie is a big search for dry land. but if there is no dry land and all the tools they use and stuff are old because manufacturing ceases without natural resources... how the HELL were all those pirates smoking cigarettes? i mean... really. the director couldn't use common sense?

I'm actually upset that classes are ending because that means i have to spend more time in long island and i don't want to do that. i just started really getting comfortable with my life in Brooklyn and i don't want to lose that. i feel like if i go to my moms house it will all slip away.

all my friends who i grew up with here all come home from college too. and i don't want to miss that. i feel like everyone is growing apart and these friends are family, therefore this is all a bit intolerable on my part.

these boys saved my life.

oh btw i relapsed from my skin infection i told u about a few weeks ago and now i have an extreme case of staph infection and more strep throat blah. my life sucks...

- i hope i don't loose my scholarship.
- i hope i get a good grade on these blogs because i love them soo.
- i hope i'm brave enough to continue this blog like i promised myself (I'm positive i will)
- i hope i get rich or die trying.

haha that last bullet point is actually a movie title. bye Farley i hope you comment!!!