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I'm bored and can't sleep again. I already cleaned my entire room and woke my best friend up twice because I called her not realizing what time it is. Here are some fish i manipulated on the internet because I'm bored & can't sleep. they follow your mouse around and when you click you can watch them fight for the food you drop...



OMGGGGGGGGGG FIIIISH EVERYYWHEREEEE BLAHHH!!!! I must admit, i am quite hipnotized by the way they swim around and bump into eachother. too bad they arent real because it would be funny to see real fish with that lack of coordination.

The fact that my fictitious little fish want the "food" so badly, makes me not want to click my mouse. Does that make me a bad person? If you answer yes that's fine because i already knew that. But just for the record, i always feed my hamster in real life...

Now that i realize the time I'm going to stay up for robot chicken (which is the best 10 minute show on adult swim EVERRRRR). Whomever thinks of the situations acted on that show have to be possibly the most evil, hilarious people on this earth. You should watch it because it rules life. its on cartoon network/adult swim at 12am and 3am. You should also watch TIM AND ERIC AWESOME SHOW GREAT JOB! while your at it too.

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my skin infection is going away and that sucks because i wanted the doctors to show me it off my body. i realized it yesterday so instead of going shopping with my friend Robyn i decided that i was feeling too like, blah to do anything and we stayed in and watched breakfast at tiffany's.

then we went to roll n roaster with my other girl friends who drove all the way from long island because they love me. but i didn't eat anything because my antibiotic makes me hate life and food but like sleep =)

then today i decided to block my friend on the internet because I'm tired of looking at his name up there. the kid is on like 24/7 and i just get sick of looking at it so today i blocked it. i don't get why people must be on the interweb so much. i mean, i get if your like, job is the interweb but not if you just leave your AIM buddy list on and walk away for a few hours just to see who ims you. pfffft please.

now tonight my mom is making me go to the gym and i don't want to because i smoke and i don't want to faint. but i should because i haven't worked out since i stopped cheerleading, which was probably the best breakup of my entire life (me and cheerleading).

now i'm going to do homework and possibly play a game or two (or 10) of solitaire. I still cant eat normal until after Sunday, which is Greek Easter, which is going to annoy me.

I THOUGHT this was college?

I thought i was in college but i guess I'm not. As i was smoking a cigarette after class i heard a group of small, insignificant, high pitch voices using my name along with a few other unmentionable words behind a wall near where i was standing.

They called me everything i am NOT including "weird". I had no idea who these girls could have been because i don't really talk to girls (for reasons such as this). Not that all this bothered me too much, actually after about two minutes or so i popped out from behind the wall and gave them a really big smile. (That shut them up fast), but it got me wondering...

What really constitutes weird? is that i don't fit in with your life long dream of participating in Staten island Greek life? or that i don't speak with a city accent? maybe its because i don't dress in gaudy, inappropriate ways? or die my hair out of a bottle?

I found it funny because if they came to long island, the majority of people there would find THEM generally unattractive. They would be the ones who "didn't take care of" themselves... the judged ones. I wonder how that would make them feel?

and you know, i got the idea that they understand I'm not from here because they were trying to recall where i am from. They obviously have been on Staten Island all there lives and couldn't imagine how it must feel to be new. Within the past 4 years I've been in the new girl at a school three times, and now that i came to college its just the same thing, not as extreme but basically the same thing

Its interesting because all this proves how different people are in different places. Where I'm from, i'm not weird at all i'm just like everyone else, (probably slightly more intelligent though, i guess you could compare long island teenagers to those idiots from that movie Clueless. Thats what they speak like, those accents).

Anyway, society needs to get a grip on what really defines normality. but it doesn't matter to me because i know who i am and i don't need to compare myself to other people in order to make myself feel important in this life. =)